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The Story of Lu & Mithi: The Love and the End

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Now I told the story of Lu & Mithi. The story that had to do with the past years of my life.

The relationship between me and Mithi ended and there is nothing to bring it back the way it was before. We would both have to move on with our lifes and make the best out of it. Of course, there is no hate or other bad feelings left between us for each other. We still consider ourselves good friends and we know that in case of any kind of help we can rely on each other. However, we do not want to depend on each other or to bring back old feelings.

I think, Mithi is handling the whole thing way better than me. He is focusing on his job and on earning money as well as finding a caring partner. He is doing it quite well and I am very happy for him. I am also busy with my job and with saving up some money. I know I have to look out for someone new too but it is pretty difficult to do it on purpose. In the end love and a relationship cannot be forced. Only time and coincidence will make it come true.

I am taking the good things out of the relationship with Mithi for my future life. I have found a true friend with a good heart. Someone, who is also struggling to find the same things in life. Mithi taught me many things. He taught me how to be strong and not to give up. He taught me to be patient. He inspired me to be creative and to try out new things. He believed in my dreams and most of all he showed me true love.

Life is not always easy and it is not always blessed but knowing Mithi is a true blessing and I am thankful for it. So this is the end of the story. And it ends with love. The love will always remain.

The Story of Lu & Mithi: The Conscience

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It never feels good coming back home from holidays. It always felt strange and empty to me. This time, it was worse in many ways. I already said how much I was crying when I left Mithi in India. I thought this was only a good-bye phase. But it was not. I felt sad for the next days and weeks and I was crying a lot. I was crying for so many reasons. It was as if my heart and mind had been awaken and as if I was brought back to my previous condition. I could finally see and feel everything so clearly. And I realised it was too late.

I was expecting Mithi would talk to me the same way he did before my visit. Instead, he did not call me again. It was only me contacting him. And he did seem to be annoyed or bored with me contacting him and talking to him. He did not consider me as his partner anymore. Of course, it pained me a lot but I could understand his behaviour. It was his reaction to my behaviour. His decision to let me go.

I was unable to let go of him in that way. For me he was still my precious darling in my heart and I could not imagine to let the days go by without talking to him or to close that chapter of my life so suddenly. I kept sending him messages and telling him how much I miss him and that I still love him. He did respond sometimes but I could see that there were no deep feelings from his side anymore. I had no choice. I could not force him to talk to me or to change his feelings. Words are not as strong as actions. So the only thing left for me was to cry my heart out and get over it. I did not cry every day though. It was more like sudden crying attacks bursting out of me. But even after many months it was still not over with the crying.

My conscience was very hard on me. I was reflecting on my behaviour and my words I showed the last months and I could not believe that this was me. I never wanted to become such a person. I wanted to be the person I was before. This was simply not the way this love was supposed to end…

The Store of Lu & Mithi: About Lu

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It is always a challange to write about oneself without leaving out an important detail of the own personality. What to say? How to start?

I can describe myself as a romantic, believing in the one and only true love and in being faithful and honest to the people I love. I despise selfish people as well as people who think they are superiour to others. The biggest heart is the one that is treating all kinds of people with respect and without prejudice.

The day I met Mithi I opened my heart to him without prejudice. I opened it to him completely, giving it all to him. I felt like my life started having a meaning with him. I felt never alone again. Every time I came from work he was there waiting to talk to me. And I enjoyed our talks so much. He gave me that feeling that I was able to talk about anything on my heart, expressing it openly.

When Mithi lost his job and had to move back to his parents house in Mangalore, India more than one year ago, I was thinking this would be only temporary. But things turned out differently. He was even more busy there and our talks became less. I tried to think positive in any way and to enjoy life in Berlin the best way possible so that I would not drown in sadness. First it worked fine, but I started to be more and more busy with my office life and especially with making bonds with colleagues. Thinking this would be a good thing to do turned out to be the opposite.

When the person you love is not there to talk to you and to share all the moments with you, you share these moments with someone else. In my case it was a colleague that I started to like a lot. We understood quite well and I thought we could be really good friends. The problem was that I felt more inside when being with him. Many nights I stayed awake thinking how it could be that I felt in a way for him that I used to feel only for Mithi. I knew the answer was the distance.

I am a very open person and I knew that Mithi was able to see that there was something on my mind, so I told him openly about my emotional status and how hard the situation was on me. I promised him to control my feelings if he would give me enough time to find myself again. I am aware of how much I hurt him during that time by telling him everything and asking him to give me time, but during that period I was emotionally devastated and a wreck. I was unable to care for him emotionally too. First I had to fix myself inside and find out where and why I lost myself on the way.

When I came to Mangalore in October to spend the month with Mithi I was hoping my visit would help me to find back to myself and to our love but I was still not ok by then and things would not simply go back to what they were before…

The Store of Lu & Mithi: About Mithi

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I will never forget the day I was talking to Mithi for the first time. He was crying like waterfalls telling me how lonely he felt and that he was thinking about suicide because he had nobody being there for him and caring for him. I did not know him at all and I also had no idea in my mind what I was actually expecting for myself from talking to him but for some reasons I felt very touched by him opening up to me as a complete stranger, him feeling so free to tell me all these very intimate things from his life. He asked me directly if I was interested in a relationship with him and I said yes.

Looking back, it occures rarely that two people decide so fast to have a relationship with each other. In that case, it was not planned, it just happened. Usually you feel very soon if there is a connection between you and another person and it was there between the two of us. We also knew that we wanted the same out of life.

The following months and years would bring many wonderful conversations, growing feelings and a strong appereciation for each other. Finally we were both able to share our happiness and sadness with someone.

It was not hard for me to love Mithi. His nature made it very easy for me. He can be described as very caring and fully devoted to his partner. He is also a very humorous and witty person. It never gets boring with him. He is a source of information and I admit that I have learned a lot from him. I still miss our conversations enormously. Not only was he a source of information to me, but also a source of inspiration. As I already mentioned, he was the one who inspired me to start this blog and to try out so many things that I would not start on my own. I am one of these people who need an incentive to be creative and for me it was him.

Mithi has many talents. He is a talented writer, a great cook, good in crafts and singing. People love to be around him. For me all these things are not as important as his loving a caring heart.

So the reason why our relationship ended had nothing to do with him. He was actually the best partner I could wish for. It had to do with me and the circumstances we were put in. But that is a different chapter.

The Story of Lu & Mithi: The Beginning

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It has been a really long time since I posted something on my blog. I started this blog with the idea of sharing with all of you pieces of my life and creative ideas such as cooking, sewing and photography. It was actually love for my darling Mithi that moved me to start this blog. Unfortunately our relationship did not survive the circumstances we were put into but the love was true and beautiful and it is still in my heart.

Being with Mithi was the most wonderful time in my life and I am still thankful for the chance of meeting the most precious person in my life so far.

I do not want to indulge in sentimentaliy but simply express my feelings about this blessed time and relationship with my partner, giving it the respect that it deserves.

I am expressing my feelings by telling our story, the story about two lovers, the story about Lu and Mithi, the names we have given each other, accompanied with photographs I made in his home town, Mangalore, India.

So this is the beginning…

A sweater with shawl collar for next winter season

It’s spring season and summer is coming close, so not the perfect time for making sweaters or any warm clothing, but I bought this gorgeous fabric some time ago and I was hoping to create a beautiful sweater out of it. Finally, I finished my projects, creating the pattern, cutting the fabric, sewing the pieces together and sewing some buttons on.

I’m very slow when it comes to sewing. I make plans about how soon I want a piece to be done, but time is passing by so fast that it takes me much longer than expected to finish a project. I’m glad I’ve finished that one and I really like the result. I want to wear that sweater next winter season. The fabric is just so comfortable to wear and to touch.IMGP1211IMGP1210 IMGP1215Since I bought only one meter of the fabric I had to be so careful with cutting it into pieces because it was just enough to make a complete sweater. What I love the most about this sweater are first of all the wooden buttons and second the unfinished look on the edges. It really fits my personal style.

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Unforgivable fabric

Last week I posted a project that I was not so satisfied with, but this week I have the chance to show you two new projects in one post. I used for these two projects one of my fabrics that I’ve shown you some weeks ago. The chosen fabric has a nice print, but I can assure you that it’s such an unforgivable fabric as it just can be. There is a lot of stretch in this fabric and I think I’m not that skilled yet to work with stretch fabric. I decided to make sweatpants and matching underpants with it. It took me a lot of time to fix the waistband, but I’m satisfied with the overall outcome in the end.IMGP1155 IMGP1156The level of this project was mediocre, not too difficult. I definitely get some routine with pants. Now it’s about time to practice some tops. I’m never sure about my modeling attempts when posting for my blog Hope you like the presentation. So have a nice easter holiday all of  you!IMGP1141 IMGP1143The Brave Cook

Indian fabric turned into a ceremonial garment

IMGP0954Hi everone, I want to thank you all for sticking to my blog and following my experiences in life, especially in sewing. For all of you who are not on wordpress with an own blog or who want to stay on track with my posts, you can follow me on my facebook page as well. Here is the like for all of you: http://www.facebook.com/pages/The-Brave-Cook-Design/109955082499704

Some time ago my darling got me a beautiful present. He purchased that gorgeous light see-through fabric with golden thread ornaments that you can see above. It was very costly, even though I’m not knowing the exact price of it. I was scared to use it and to turn it into something, since I didn’t want to ruin it. But anyway, this has been the best present possible for me.

After some weeks, I’ve decided to make a traditional and ceremonial looking garment out of this fabric, something like a light tunic that can be worn during summer. I wanted to use as much of the golden ornaments in one piece as possible. To avoid to much cutting and too many left-overs I’ve decided to use the whole width of the fabric for the body, sewing the edges together in the front. That way, the golden ornament is going all around the body.IMGP0955 IMGP0951 IMGP0952 IMGP0953I’ve connected the edges up to the chest, keeping them open and connecting again on top creating a hoodie. Giving this tunic a hoodie makes the garment look more young and modern. I also love how the golden line goes up in the front meeting in the hoodie. That reminds me a little bit of an adidas jacket. It sounds like a simple cut, and in fact it is! All I had to do next was to cut holes for the sleeves and to adjust the back of the hoodie, connecting it to the back of the garment.IMGP0949 IMGP0943The fabric was very light and delicate, so of course I had to be very careful when sewing it together and to place the thread where it’s not possible to see it. I’m not sure if I’m going to wear this piece ever in my life, but I still like it. It’s definitely outside my comfort zone to create something like that, but I think sewing is about trying things out and being creative in different ways. There’s still something left from this fabric, let’s see what I can use it for. I’m sure my darling is happy with the result.

The Brave Cook

My latest fabric collection

IMGP1126My days are very busy and I have to stay on track planning my job career for the next months and years, so there is not really time to design or sew something. Nevertheless I did some great fabric shopping this year and I have enough material to work with. Of course, I did not want to hold back myself from giving you a look into my fabric closet and a little preview of what you could expect to see from me the next months.IMGP1128Considering the fact that I want to make menswear, it’s a little bit funny what fabrics I’ve chosen to work with, but I love to work with interesting unconventional fabrics. It’s a great way to practice and to mix different fabrics together.

So, there was this velvet stretch fabric on sale and I bought 4 meters of it. I’ve already done some pieces with it and I can tell you it’s not easy to work with it.IMGP1135Then we have this vintage looking light chiffon fabric. I can imagine a beautiful tunic or shirt with it.IMGP1134I also bought some gold and shiny fabrics. It’s really one of my favorite color. Some of these could be used as a lining or in a decorative way.IMGP1132 IMGP1138 IMGP1133Naturally, I want to make some beautiful warm sweaters and jackets, so I’ve found these gorgeous knit fabrics with a fabulous structure and beautiful colors.IMGP1131 IMGP1129The one I fell in love with the most was this colorful and vibrant but yet romantic silk fabric. It cost me the most money out of all my fabrics.IMGP1137I hope my days become more relaxed again so that I can start with all my different sewing projects turning these gorgeous fabrics into lovely clothes.

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A new project and lots of news!

Foto am 07-12-2012 um 15.24 #3I was not posting anything last week, but that has its reasons! First of all I was struggling with my health the last weeks, I had a strong cough that I could not get rid of. The second reason are some changes regarding my work and my future plans. I need to change my job and more than that, to start a new apprenticeship later this year. I don’t know if I will succeed in getting the kind of apprenticeship that I’m actually looking for, but my wish is to leave this place one day and for that reason I need some extra education.

So, to sum up everything what’s happening right now, there is nothing sure and clear at the moment and I don’t know how that will effect my blog. Making progress with my fashion design projects, it’s sad to imagine that I might need to make a break, but I definitely need money and time for my fashion ideas.

For this week, I have for you a new project that I was able to finish so time ago. I used some leftover fabrics from other projects, including some denim and fake leather to create a cute photo camera case for the camera that I’m using for my blog. I apologize for the bad quality of some of my photographies in the post, but I had to use a different camera to show you the case with my camera in it. It’s not really a difficult project but the execution was still difficult since I was using fake leather fabric.IMGP0801IMGP0840IMGP0841IMGP0842I started the project with measuring the size of my system camera and cut out the patern for the outside and the inside using denim and fake leather fabric. The denim fabric was fringed on one side so I use the fringed side as some decorative element. I know the outcome is not excellent but I’m ok with it considering that it was the first time for me making such a small camera case.Foto am 07-12-2012 um 15.21 #2 Foto am 07-12-2012 um 15.24 #2As you can see I added the wooden button on the front. I like the overall look of it and I hope to be able to practice on making more stuff out of leather-kind materials. See you next week!

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